Goddammit I'm hungry

I think I'll do jumping jacks. Or maybe take a shower. Or look at the website for The Limited, where I haven't been able to shop since I was 20. Oh, to be a size 12 again. I am holding on to all the great clothes I'll be able to buy once I'm not fat anymore. I'll be a fashionista. AND the clothes I'll be able to wear again that have been living in my parents' basement. All those cool clothes from the summer I worked at the Gap. I don't care if they're not in fashion anymore. I'll wear them anyway. And SHORTS! I haven't worn shorts in 10 years.

Anyway, I keep telling myself I'm supposed to be hungry. I'm on a diet. I've been used to eating thousands of extra calories a day. I'm SUPPOSED to be hungry now. I need to retrain my body so that it doesn't expect 3000 calories a day. It won't last forever. If I can get through the first two or three weeks, it'll be ok. I'll get used to eating 1500-1800 calories a day, that'll be normal, and I won't feel so hungry anymore.

So here's the rundown for the day:

8am
Cereal
1 small chocolate chip cookie (so sue me)

1pm
brown rice with red beans
grilled fish
breaded corn fritter thingys (4)

4pm
10 mint M&M's
2 clementine oranges

6:30
chili (no rice, thank you very much, but did add some shredded cheese)

8:30
2 clementine oranges