So I've been really sick, which is my excuse. This weekend I wound up in the hospital with critical dehydration, that's how much I was throwing up. Though I think it was a message from God to chill out and stop stressing. Three weeks ago I had my mom visiting, and then I had two crazy weeks with lots of travel, and I think I caught a stomach bug and really took it hard because my system was vulnerable. Sooo....
So I got down to about 235 after this whole sick thing. And it's just really interesting because even though I'm doing better now, I kind of got used to not wanting to eat. I'm hoping maybe I can make a habit out of this, and have an upside from the sick thing.
It's really weird for me. I'm eating half a cookie and tossing the other half. I'm not filling my cereal bowl. I'm not finishing dinner. It's really strange for me. But I'm not going to complain. If I can get in the habit of not eating, and even when I'm back to being hungry again, knowing that I'm not going to die if I don't eat - well, maybe that will make my sickness worth it...
Also, I'm excited to be comfortably below 240 now. I'm going to a conference in almost exactly a month - I'm hoping I can get down to 225 as a deadline. Because that was what I weighed in New York, and I could dig out my NYC clothes then. Here's hoping hungrily...
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